HJ Fashion Show

This year Hyper Japan had a whole area dedicated to Kawaii as they teamed up with ASOBISYSTEM (who produced Kyary Pamyu Pamyu) to bring a range of Japanese models and street fashion to the UK. You can learn more about it in this special feature programme as all the features at Japan Expo in Paris were also here in London at Hyper Japan.
Part One:
Part Two:

 
Hyper Japan did a post asking for people to take part in various fashion projects – showing off your own street fashion styles, being a model and taking part in a photo book. I submitted a photo, hoping to get chosen for a small part as I thought it would be nice to be able to show off a style I’m passionate about especially if I could feature some of my handcrafted items too. Anyway the event got really close and I hadn’t heard anything so I assumed I wasn’t picked. Eventually though I got an email and it turned out I’d been picked for the main show and would be modelling actual Japanese brand clothing! I never expected to get chosen as an actual model, it caught me totally off guard and filled me with slight panic which wasn’t helped due to the lack of information provided and how last minute it was (1 week before event). I also couldn’t make it to the run through the night before as I couldn’t get down until Friday lunchtime which didn’t help my nerves.

 
Anyway, after a few emails back and forth (they asked to confirm some stuff and send a natural hair pic) it got to Thursday evening (the day before the event) and all I knew was go straight to the backstage area for a dress rehearsal when I arrived Friday. It was really confusing trying to figure out where to go and who I needed to talk to, I found the fashion bit but didn’t want to just walk through the door as I wasn’t 100% sure it was the right bit. Typically everyone who came out only spoke Japanese and couldn’t understand me but luckily I eventually spotted a London model and she took me to who I needed to see. Unfortunately the lady sorting things only spoke Japanese too and the translator wasn’t around so trying to understand what was going on was difficult but eventually I did the dress rehearsal – I was so flustered though that I put the top on back to front first. Ooops! So embarrassing, she must have thought I was a right idiot.

 
This was this first time I got to find out exactly what I was wearing. It was by the brand SPINNS and was a sailor moon themed oversized short top and skirt. Not only was the skirt A LOT shorter than I usually wear but I had bare legs, short ankle socks and platform shoes. I’m quite tall and was on a raised stage in platform shoes too – I was terrified that people would be able to see up the skirt if I wasn’t careful and that I may fall over. It was also pale yellow and white which are not colours that particularly suit me. Also because they had asked to see a photo of my natural hair I assumed it meant I couldn’t wear a wig, though a couple of the other girls did so maybe it would have been ok, it all got too last minute so there wasn’t chance to check. I really don’t like my natural hair, I feel really self conscious as it’s very fine and flat plus it frizzes in the rain/damp atmospheres and I’d got rained on slightly on my way there (typically!). Wigs definitely give me more confidence. So yeah to say I was nervous was an understatement! I’ve always had issues with confidence and how I look and I just felt really exposed and out of my depth/comfort zone. Plus I just felt so out of place against the other models who were all so pretty, I felt like a clumsy oversized giant, with massive clown feet and chunky legs. I’m sure if I’d submitted a different picture I wouldn’t have been picked. Anyway basically I was really nervous and when I went out on stage I saw the way some of the audience looked at me, like with an expression on their face of how exactly should she be modelling and I lost my nerve and did a horrible performance. I just looked so awkward on stage and went the wrong way and couldn’t decide how to pose or anything 😦 It was bad.

Still I did it and I feel that’s important. It’s too easy to hide away from things that scare you and to let others put you down. I’d been chosen, rightly or wrongly, so I tried to keep that in mind on the Sunday and I think I looked a bit calmer and more confident – I still didn’t do a great job, clearly being a model isn’t for me. It was also really important to me that I didn’t just quit/back out, how can I write my blog telling people to ignore comments from others and embrace/express who they are no matter what they look like if I can’t do it myself. I really want you all to believe in your self and to try and battle your nerves/confidence issues, its ok to fail at something but its much better to at least try than to run away from it. It makes me really sad that we live in a world where society places so much judgement on others over appearance and that we then inflict these sorts of thoughts back on ourselves 😦

I’m sorry the photos aren’t great, the lighting is not good in the venue, my phone doesn’t take the best pics and I can’t see myself when taking the photo so I need to guess plus I was comfortable about it all.

This was Fridays hair and makeup:

IMAG2896 IMAG2897

Sunday’s hair and makeup:

IMAG2903IMAG2899

Outfit Rundown:
Oversized short-bodied top in pale yellow with print on front and back
White skirt with sailor moon print
Red choker with gold star
Small pouch (to put your phone in?)
White ankle socks with a flower on
Platform white sandals with see-through base (which were not actually my size)

sailormoon-spinns-apparel-collaboration2014a tumblr_n4z87xSPnB1qivj1oo7_500 sailormoon-spinns-apparel-collaboration2014b SM_Spinns_Case_-_Back

I don’t have any photos and can’t find any online (thank goodness) but there are these two videos:

http://vimeo.com/101977874

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7TmJA6b4qWc

Advertisements

2 thoughts on “HJ Fashion Show

  1. Hey! It was so lovely to read through this and to feel very proud of your accomplishment of being involved in such an incredible show! I could almost feel your nerves whilst reading! Haha! It must’ve been a crazy experience. I completely agree with your sign off on the importance of being yourself and ignoring negative attitudes of others, although it does appear to be a lot harder than people think – I love the whole Lolita, Kawaii and Harajuku fashion vibes but it’s just not really accepted here in the UK, especially in the suburbs of Surrey where I live. People seem to shun colours and adventurous outfit choices for some reason…I find it very hard to wear the fashion styles I love without feeling the eyes of others burning on me >< I'm sure you did a great job on the stage (I only went along on the Sunday and I only caught a small part of the fashion parade…). I understand the backstage commotion and lack of translators would have affected your nerves, I would have been the exact same! At least you can say you were there and had a great experience 🙂

    • Thank you so much for your kind comments! I agree totally, it is sad that you can’t wear what you want because of the treatment you get from others and it is strange how little colour people seem to wear here. There are lots of fashion meets around the country though and I think pretty much every area has a lolita community. Getting to a meet, especially if travelling alone can be scary, but it’s lovely when you get there and you can express yourself and meet likeminded people. I usually take a long coat with me so I’m not too conspicuous and put a wig and accessories on when I get nearer or there etc. It’s always important to keep safe too.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s